Well, Lord, here we are at the end of my second month of prayer journaling. I’ve just had a look back from the start on the first of June and I’ve come to a realisation – well, three realisations really. The first is that I find myself really looking forward to spending time with you in this way, Lord. I actually find it hard to miss a day now, although I know that we both know that sometimes every day just isn’t practical. I know I can always just talk to you, that I don’t have to write everything down, and if I didn’t have such a butterfly mind that would be great.
The second thing I realised is how little I feel like I actually pray for things or ask for things. I’m neglectful about praying for others in any meaningful way and there are things I should be mentioning all the time, like asking for the salvation of my children, or for healing for those unwell, or praying for those in ministry. Instead I just seem to ramble on about those people that make up my little universe.
I feel as though I am still far from you, Lord, although I know I’ve got a bit closer. I know that there’s still big parts of my life that are, quite literally, on the run from you. But over all this, and in spite of my fear, I want to go deeper, Lord. I just don’t really know how.
So, Lord, I then come to my third realisation, which is just how much a lack in resources as a Christian. I do want to do better. Show me how, Lord.
I commit myself to you, Lord, in the name of Jesus….Amen