Morning Lord! Bible Study day has swung around again and I thought I would begin by praying that your hand would be on our group today and that you would speak to me through the study. For some reason I feel a bit out of step with you, as though I’m on some sort of wrong track, so would appreciate a bit of redirection if necessary. I pray you would be with Libby as she prepares to host us and that you would help her have the right words to say to encourage us as mothers. May we also be an encouragement to her.
Emboldened by last week’s good behaviour I am planning on taking Nathan again. To this end I also pray that you would have your hand on his impulse control button and help him behave himself. As far as I know he has managed to be good at kindy for the past few sessions (even though Andrea does keep giving me dirty looks when I come and go) so I pray that this pattern of behaviour could extend itself through today.
Sorry for the lack of prayer yesterday. As you know (!) I went to Caroline’s yesterday morning to try and help her tidy up a bit in case the house does sell at tomorrow’s auction. I must say she is quite a difficult person to assist as she often refuses help when you offer it. I tried to suggest doing this and that but she politely shook her head and said she would deal with it later. If the house does sell there won’t be too many more of these ‘laters’, but I guess she’s still fervently hoping for a way of escape where this is concerned. Bring on the miracle, I say.
Apart from the auction looming things are not going great with any of them. Faith has been getting into trouble at school for talking back and goes to great pains to be of as little help to anyone as she can. Reading between the lines, I also gathered that Faith has been not-so-subtly implying that Logan’s departure is all Caroline’s fault and I can see how hard Caroline is trying not to be hurt by such accusations. Trinity is in absolute mourning at the loss of her piano and has now stopped speaking all together. She’s spending vast amounts of time in her room simply staring into space which is not healthy, but Caroline is flummoxed as to what to do about it – and all the more so since Christian takes up so much of her time there’s little left for the other two.
As for Christian, his domination of the household routines is clearly taking its toll on Caroline who looks, frankly, haggard. It scarcely seems possible that this tired, thin, almost bedraggled creature is the same one that made me burn with envy not nine months ago. Even the house has a cowed look, as though it is trying to hold itself up out of his reach. Every conceivable possession has been raised above his sphere of influence giving the house a sort of funny high-tide mark.
Anyway, I had better go. I continue to pray for the Wests, that you would bring some redemption for Caroline, and fast. If at all possible, I pray that that the house would not sell tomorrow, buying Caroline a bit more time, if nothing else. Be with my family today, Lord. As always (or perhaps not always enough) I continue to pray for the salvation of my children. I lift all before you in your precious name…and hope I’m not so far distant from you that you can’t hear my prayers…Amen