Afternoon Lord! Here we are, another week! I’ve just got back from kindy drop off and am feeling a little anxious as Andrea was back today. Thankfully she was busy with one of the other little children when we arrived so I didn’t have to speak with her. At this stage I’m not sure what to do or say where she’s concerned so I guess I just have to pray that you would give me wisdom about this – as I ask you give me wisdom about so many other things. Some people joke about wanting to have coffee by I.V but if I had to choose what went into me like that, it would definitely be wisdom not caffeine.
Speaking of wisdom, thank you for the chance to meet and catch up with Caroline yesterday. I can’t say I had anything profound to add to our conversation, but at least I could be there and try and show some sort of support. Things really aren’t going well, that much was obvious, but I guess this is not news to you, Lord. Caroline told me about the meeting with the paediatrician, how within the space of thirty-five minutes she went from having a normal, slightly difficult son to having one with a diagnosed special need. Not only that, it’s the sort of special need that is unquantifiable (all autistic people are different), seemingly untreatable (unless you are prepared to use mind-altering drugs) and unpredictable (in that no one can say how things might play out into the future).
It seems clear Caroline is deeply shaken (quite understandably) if not in shock about the whole thing and I can see it will take her a while to fully come to grips with this diagnosis. I guess, like all parents, they had dreams for Christian that simply may never be fulfilled, and the fact that no one is able to give an indication of what the long-term prognosis might be makes it very difficult. Meanwhile, life at home sounds hellish. Christian is out of control, and even Faith seems to be acting out (or trying to get attention) as a result. It sounds as though Logan is either being very obtuse or very obstinate because he still seems to think Caroline’s parenting is at the core of the problem, and is helping out by working even longer hours than Andrew. The only positive thing seemed to be that Trinity has passed her next level piano exams which is great.
So I pray for them, Lord, and especially for Caroline who does seem to be shouldering the larger part of the load. I think she is hoping there might be some opportunity to find a new nanny to help take some of the pressure off, but Logan has been muttering about the recession and lack of finances, so who knows? I pray for your influence, love and peace to surround them, in Jesus’ name… Amen